Well, January has been… interesting. Being in the U.S., there has basically been a near-constant barrage of infuriating news/rumors ever since the inauguration, and it’s been tough to keep up with and also maintain my own sanity.

I also just discovered that someone basically stole my domain, I assume to siphon SEO traffic off it — this is the only logical reason I can think of, and it’s not at all comforting.

So, if you’ve been trying to access my website for the last month and hitting a DNS error, I deeply apologize. This is a blatant testament to the fact that I have not put much thought into this endeavor in recent weeks. I was able to access my WordPress site without issue, and had no need to visit my own website to check that it was working properly.

Ugh. Anyway.

I’ve been trying to get a better handle on balancing all the various priorities in my life. I think the last few months have felt like trying to scoop up sand with my bare hands, only for the grains to sift through my fingers, so I’m never able to do as much as I want or need to.

My brain is cluttered, and I end up vacillating on what my “real” priority should be in any given moment.

Focusing on Small Acts

I’m trying to focus only on small acts — across the board in my life. I have an incredible skill/curse of always being able to see the forest for the trees, but sometimes feeling overwhelmed by it.

Writing. Exercise. Family. Community engagement. I think about these things in terms of grand gestures and statements, rather than small acts I can build routines and habits around. I need to remember how to play the long game again.

So, that will be a focus of this monthly series for some time.

Last Month’s Goals

1. Read three books.
2. All the routines, but more.

Read three books?

Just one – Blackfish City by Sam J. Miller, for which I have yet to write a full review. I also made progress on three others and ended up finishing one of those right at the beginning of February.

It is far too early to be concerned about my GoodReads Challenge of 24 books. Small acts!

All the routine, but more?

I think I’ve done alright on the exercise front, where I’ve managed to intentionally do some kind of physical activity and track my progress several times per week. What I haven’t done is get back to the gym in any meaningful way — maybe once in January.

I haven’t made much progress on the writing front, either, but I have definitely been thinking about it more and more. I used to think about my fantasy universe, Úr’Dan, every single day, turning over story details and ideas in my head constantly.

While I have managed to think about my writing more in recent weeks, it’s been more in the vein of how I want to publish and to what extent I want to market my books. At this point, I just need to get back to writing, and I think I’m in a better place to do that now than I have been in about a year.

Goals for February

1. Finish three books. I’ve already got one down, since I finished the massive encyclopedia of The World of Ice and Fire, by George R.R. Martin. This took me several months to read in little sections at a time, so I wish I could count that effort, but I’m at least 1/3 of the way through my February goal.
   • Current reads: Aspects by John M. Ford; and We Were Eight Years in Power: An American Tragedy, by Ta-Nehisi Coates.
   • I’m not far enough in either of those to really think about my next reads yet. I may pick up a paperback of The Hobbit, just for comfort. It’s my all-time favorite.
2. Small acts – Exercise. Bare minimum: stretch and meditate every day, and if I do any of the following in addition, that’s ideal.
   • Bronze medal: short yoga session
   • Silver medal: longer yoga session and/or resistance training at home
   • Gold medal: 1-hour gym session
3. Small acts – Writing. Bare minimum: get back to posting here every Wednesday and Sunday, and not just haiku. Achieving some combination of the following throughout a given week is ideal.
   • Bronze medal: basic admin for this site, my email, my imprint, etc.
   • Silver medal: take notes, or organize older notes
   • Gold medal: Revise/rewrite my duology in, at least a 15-minute focus session

I want to make progress. I just need to narrow my mental energy to the here-and-now.

Steve D