Leaning on the Small Things

Have you ever started writing something without knowing at all where it was going? That’s what this post is.

Today (Tuesday) was my first day back at work after a 5-day vacation to a family lakehouse. Five days doesn’t seem that long, especially over an extended weekend, but it was a strange return anyway.

I’ve found it more and more difficult to let go of work. Difficult is not the right word. I look forward to letting go of work things at the end of the day. But I feel more and more guilty about it. I don’t think anyone is placing that guilt upon me, except myself.

Our lakehouse vacation was supposed to be an escape from work, from our recent spate of home improvement projects, and from the occasional monotony of semi-quarantined life.

It was all of those things, for the most part. I just had one afternoon where I selfishly decided not to spend a lot of time with my son, and it’s been bugging me. I don’t think anyone else felt I was ignoring my family, but that’s how it felt to me.

All this is adding up to the notion that I am often too hard on myself, and I have trouble letting go of little things that have more to do with my perception of myself than with my interactions with other real people.

So I spent much of today (again, Tuesday) trying not to stress over things that are either done and in the past, or completely out of my control.

Fortunately, a few things made me feel better over the course of the day:

  • a solid yoga session, which is really the only reason I can be productive for 8-10 hours a day
  • reading and chatting with my son before his bedtime
  • This song, by an incredible singer/songwriter from somewhere near DC:

I’m going to listen to this for the third or fourth time tonight and then go to bed.

Steve D

Friday Publish-Day: A New Deadline

Welcome to a new edition of Friday… Day! As you might have heard earlier this week, I’m in need of a change-up. This series will officially focus on my publishing efforts, even though that’s essentially what I’ve been trying to do for weeks.

On to the updates! Continue reading “Friday Publish-Day: A New Deadline”

Friday Write-Day: Pre-Holiday Stress Time!

The holidays are usually somewhat stressful for me. Just making sure I’ve find appropriate gifts for people and can get to all of the family events is more than enough to think about.

Work has been stressful this week, largely because I was trying to wrap up a lot of things before being off for a few days.

But, I am off today, and thankfully, have some time to get shit done.

Continue reading “Friday Write-Day: Pre-Holiday Stress Time!”

Friday Write-Day: When the Big Picture Gets Too Big

I tend to look at the big picture a lot. I actually enjoy taking a step back in any given situation and analyzing the larger strategy or plan at work. The same goes for my writing; the clearest vision in my head for any story is the Big Picture. My issue is that the big picture often distracts me from the little things. Continue reading “Friday Write-Day: When the Big Picture Gets Too Big”

Not a Real Post or Update, but Close Enough

Sorry for the radio silence this week. I’ve been stressed, and Jessie is apparently working triple-shifts, which I did not know were a thing in the 21st century. Tomorrow is also not the start of my weekend, as I am covering for someone on Saturday. At least the office will be devoid of people I’m supposed to interact with.

It’s all good though, because next week, we’ll be on yet another road trip adventure to a cottage on a river! Romantic getaway, you say??? Continue reading “Not a Real Post or Update, but Close Enough”